"To let go isn't to forget, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't about winning or losing. It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn't leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It's not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't about loss and it's not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It's about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and set yourself free."

time for me to take a chance, it may not be what i really want but i have to do this...cause i don't want to give up without knowing if its what i really want.

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yup so with that said i figured some things out this weekend. and i know what i need to do...for myself!

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camping is fun! i wish i would have done more of it this summer...if anyone wants to go for a weekend before i leave let me know!

went to Val-Du-Lakes campground last night! definitely a good time with Courtney. we met some hotties, and some not so much hotties. hahaha but overall it was a good time. specially deciding to come home at 4 in the stinken morning. hahah who does that...honestly!?! guess we do. we are pretty sweet though! least i got a pretty sweet wristband out of that adventure. woo hoo!

well this week ='s working then my family leaves wednesday for the cottage for the weekend so definitely gonna head up there at some point. gonna be fun! hopefully just having a great week/weekend! i need it!

alright well theres my update, now its time to go find something a lot more exciting to do than this...actually bed time sounds great!

hope everyone has a GREAT week!

I'm HAPPY!

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things are just so awesome right now. with everything. and it makes me happy to find things i didn't even think i was searching for. for example, certain friends...im glad i found people like i did. they just make me love who i am and thats what i need. i wouldn't trade anything for my past with friendships cause it has led me to find the best ones yet. even though life has its negative aspects, im not sure anything could disrupt that true happiness when you find it. it feels more like being happy, having peace with situations that i never have before, and having joy each and every day. it feels good...i wouldnt trade it for anything!

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If you're feeling frightened about what comes next, don't. Embrace the uncertainty. Allow it to lead you places. Be brave as it challenges you to exercise both your heart & your mind as you create your own path towards happiness, don't waste time with regret. Spin wildly into your next action. Enjoy the present, each moment, as it comes ; cause you'll never get another one quite like it. & if you should ever look up, & find yourself lost, simply take a breath & start over. Retrace your steps & go back to the purest place in your heart..where your hope lives. You'll find your way again.

Ball's annual fish fry was last night....oh my word, probably the BEST night ever! it was such a blast. i love my awesome friends. definitely was a night i'll NEVER forget! cant wait to hang with them more! so pretty much the night consisted of wiffel ball, pool, basketball, random walks, watching the adults get tanked ((HAHA)), dancing, and just some great memories! heres a few pics of an awesome night....

  i have the sweetest best friend ever!

 definitely love these people! they are SO much fun.

 ashley: this girl is amazing,  shes just a doll!

 this is probably my favorite picture from the entire night!

 probably the two coolest guys you will ever meet!

 aww aunt jen loves us!

 kyle: what a sweetheart! yet he thought my name was jessica...hmmmm?!?!

 this pic turned out sweet i think...brian and nella- aww love them! they are such a cute couple!

 never had as much fun before as i did last night with these guys!

so as you can see....the night was definitely full off good times! gotta love having a best friend that has a fish fry every summer! hahahah! cant wait till the next!